OK not to take away from the previous posts because they are important and you NEED to read them if you havent but I couldn’t hold back any longer.

THEY ARE HERE!!!! My book are ready and up on Lulu and they are wonderful . The covers are amazing! They were created by our own Az arent they amazing what a great talent he is! I so love him and his work.

I am so excited they are done and I love love love the covers , my friends have seen them and are blown away! If you want to see more of Az's work go to his website

Heres the over view of them

"Stop Kickin' My Chair"

The Adventures of Knobbly Vol.1

Description:

First I hear it creaking and slithering its way down the street, come closer with each heart beat, each breath. I smell its odor and it stinks, it smells of body sweat and desperation. It smells of blood and abuse of hopelessness and broken dreams of the many, it smells of hunger and depression, of torture and anxiety. Then I see it, its cloud of blackness rolling over everything, rolling over all that’s in its path and everything is in its path. Nothing is too insignificant or too small for it, as it eats it all up, contaminating everything it touches with its negativity. Nothing stops it or even slows it down, it does not sleep, it does not rest, it just keeps coming and spreading devastation in its path. Not the kinda devastation we expected, nothing on a grand scheme. No it is far smarter then that.

We expected great works of darkness slamming us down in masterful strokes, pulling us all in, in one or two great swoops. But no it did not happen like that, it kept us waiting and wondering, wearing us down as we kept our vigil. Light workers looking for the battle, waiting for the great charge only to be left to wonder. Wonder when the next shoe would drop, what it would be, where it would happen, we would be ready, we would fight to the death for the Light. The whole time the Darkness was inching closer and closer, we didn’t see it. It came to us and sought out our greatest worries, our biggest fears or hurts and it used them. It exploited them and still we didn’t see it, we felt it but we couldn’t understand it. It all seemed to small to take notice of, to insignificant to pay attention to. It didn’t matter it was happening to everyone everywhere, we still waited for the BIG battle and it didn’t come.

So now we are beaten down, tired overwhelmed, stress ridden and scared. We are confronted by an economy in the world that is flushing all our hopes and dreams down the toilet and we cant find a way out. We see wars in the making and they cant seem to be stopped and still in our own mundane everyday lives we are torn and twisted as if we have already been to battle and lost. Tears flow freely daily and hope dies a tortured death, dreams are broken and shattered, decisions made for our best and highest good without guilt are now reduced to guilty thoughts of a selfish person all of which couldn’t be further from the truth or the reality in which they were constructed. Yet this rolling darkness, this mass of negativity has made us buy into its reality and twisted it so we are all defective, rotten and inadequate.

Yet what can we do you say and do I even care any more. YES I cry out, yes you care, its there under that depression, that broken heart that shattered dream, that ton of guilt, its there! That small glitter of light that tiny spark of gold, that’s enough to fan the flames again, to reignite the hope, to release the depression, to mend the broken, the twisted, the sad, the hurting, the stench of negativity and burst forth once more, wiser this time, with the flames of unconditional positive love. The Light of the world and the universe is ours for the taking so TAKE! Do not buy into the darkness, into the negativity for that is what it is using to fight us with. No grand battle now, no strokes we can unite and fight back with. But small personal injuries, small ideas it plants and then we take in and let it grow that is where it hurts us, in our insecurities in our fears in our hurts. LIFT UP my warriors, Reach for the light and think on this. If the darkness has been oppressing you, if it has worn you down, if it has taken your joy in life, if times are seeming to hard and stress has mounted. If you are confused, tired and scared and don’t know where to turn then darkness has done its job. Truly I say to you, if darkness thinks so much of you as to pull you in and work on your personal insecurities, if it doesn’t think you are too small or too insignificant to over look then what a treasure and unique creation the Light MUST consider you. For whatever the darkness holds or has the Light has about a million more to the good, and you are a CHILD of the LIGHT.

So now take a breath and look at the battle going on about you right now, do not let this darkness roll upon you as it wishes. I actually saw it roll over a person riding a bike down the road. They were happy and riding very fast, they seemed to have purpose and a place to be, the darkness rolled over them and in an instant they become slow and even stopped riding. They got off the bike and trudged (yes trudged) slowly down the street. The depression they held was a palpable thing and I could feel it from where I sat. And the darkness rolled on! It even tried (and I admit with some success touched me and my heart, my fears, my insecurities) to take me in, to feed off me. As odd as this may sound rejoice in your oppression, you are doing something right to call such energies to want to feed off you, you are a fierce warrior and are needed by the Light. The darkness fears facing you or it would not be so sneaky in its attack, face it head on, call it out and say I know what you are doing and I wont buy into your reality. I AM USEFUL, I AM LOVED and I AM A GROUNDED WARRIOR OF THE POSITIVE LIGHTED PATH

When in doubt my friends, when hurting or broken, force yourself to say these words. Run them off place them every where I have one directly across from the toilet (don’t laugh) I am sure to say it often as I read it there!

I am lifted by the Light

No darkness here within my sight

I Serve the Light with all my Heart

Darkness hear me now, Depart!

Remember Dear Ones YOU ARE LOVED and I am just an e-mail away

silverhoofs@att.net

Lady Wolfen Mists

Heres my answer

Orgonite energy (also called orgone) is a wonderful life force enhancer (also called chi energy) and it claims spaces that have "dead or negative" energy and fills them with positive life force energy, it really is amazing. Orgone energy or etheric energy was detected by Dr. W Reich in the late 1930 if I remember correctly

I use orgone for many things and its simple to make just using metal filings, various crystals and stones as well as resin to hold it all together often in various shapes it then resonates the energies that can call specific things for specific reasons. For example if you want to see faeries you could make a cone shape and place a symbol of a fae with welcome, on the bottom of the cone (just sit the cone on top of the symbol). This sends out these types of energies through the air and the fae pick up on it and vibrate to or be drawn to where they are welcome.

Same thing for increasing health or money or such things, it all resonates with positive vibrational frequencies and bring those things to us if it is in our best and highest interest. I have seen orgone energy cones (generators) used in hospitals with a symbol of good health use underneath the cone and people have gotten well in record time. It also doesn’t matter if you believe in it or not, it is like gravity it just seems to work period. I have even given these away at Yule to friends for special reasons, one was for spiritual awakening work, one was for health another was for busting the negative energy coming from a cell tower. They all said they felt better once they used them

How to Make Orgonite

More Questions

Dee asks hope you don't mind. I have a couple more question. (You can edit these into your blog post if you like.)
~1. Do you use a mold release for your molds? Or does the resin just naturally not adhere to paper, metal or plastic?

Yes you will need a lubricant for release. Just about anything can be used for a mold from a funnel to party hats (seam taped) to those cheap drinking glasses (martini) But you will need to lubricate it so it doesn’t stick. Pour at least 12 –14 oz of resin mix to make your cones. To much hardener will make the Orgonite over heat and t may crack, don’t worry it doesn’t effect he energies so its no problem. If it takes more then an hour or two to harden you didn’t add enough hardener to your nix, just let it sit , it may take 24 hours but it will harden and it will work. Be sure to wear Gloves to protect your hands

~2. What is the symbol of health and well being? I like to use runes The one I use is Uraz    heres a great website that lists the runes and their meanings http://www.sunnyway.com/runes/pronunciation.html#uruzp

 Try this vid off YouTube

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ccS70UQE0fE

"Hello Michael." I say.

"Hello Cub, you look like you’re hurting tonight."

I smile and reach out my hand, "A bit but if you help me up I can make it."

His hand reaches out and I am actually lifted from the chair. The pain is flowing away and I am feeling renewed, wish this lasted all the time.

"Where are we going tonight," I ask.

"To the portal rooms" he replies and drapes his wings about me. Within seconds we are drifting, flying through the many astral planes and I see many many people I recognize. I do not know "know" them but we have passed each other many times on the way to our destinations and I wave. They wave back and some even say hi as we pass by, its funny how quickly one can get used to things, I remember when this kinda scared me, now its old hat.

We enter the portal room and Michael makes sure I am comfortable. He brings me my purple robe, it is warm and comfy. He helps me put it on and I am immediately aware of the healing energy it pours over and through me, any residual pain is gone and I can sit comfortably.

Yet something is sticking me in the pocket, I put my hand in and laugh as I pull out the offending object. It is may hair brush and I grin at Michael, he smiles back and says, "I know how you are." I brush my hair and put the brush away, then I roll up to the table in my chair. I see "my space" has already been set up as there is a tablet to write on and pens.

"Guess I will be taking notes?" I say as I pick up the pen. "Only if you want to," he replies.

The door slides open and in walks two other angels with trays of goodies to eat and drink. I say hi and they smile at me and set out the goodies on the table. Then in walks Gabriel and flings himself into a chair.

He leans forward and runs his hands through his auburn hair with golden highlights. He is still as tall, almost 7 ½ feet, as before with intense emerald eyes. His wings are folded back but you cant mistake their ever changing colors of golden, to pale yellow, to green to light blue and a twinkle of purple, they rotate in color at the very tips as the rest stay an even snowy white. He looks tired and his swimmers body looks like it could use a rest.

"Gosh I am tired been working all morning, sure could use something to drink" he says and reaches for a soda.

The door opens again and in walk another angel, there is a pinkish light about it, not overpowering just soft and gentle. He too has auburn hair, it is cut shorter. Not buzz cut, just shorter on the sides and longer on top. He is beautiful, there is no other word for it. I am enchanted.

His eyes are steel grey and his skin tone is light, kinda yellowish. There is a small scar on the left cheek. His wings are held flat back not folded out, they have green stripes on the edges and soft pink tops closest to the shoulders. He pops Gabriel on the arm, "Hey lazy how’s it going?"

"Lazy! Cham I’ll have you know I have been double timing all my work for the past 2 months, I just don’t know when its gonna stop. Boy am I bushed"

"Tell me about it, we have been swarmed by those in need too, I guess that’s why were here isn’t it?" He smiles and grabs a chair and they begin to talk at a volume I can’t hear. The doors continue to open and a lot of beings in robes come in and line the walls.

I ask Michael what's going on who are all these people. He explains. "Well the bushed guy you know is Gabriel. His job of protecting and sending healing energies for mothers and children as well as delivering messages from the Creator has kept him and his Angels really busy these last months. So many to people in need to keep track of.

The other one with the pink glow is Chamuel and he is the Angel of pure love, he keeps you from the depths of depression and sorrow. He’s been busy as well. Those beings there are angels who are under his direction and they help to guard the portals of the sky, keeping out the unwanted energies of darkness. They are here to take notes for the other 25,000 who work under Chamuel. That leads to why we are here."

Michael doesn’t grab anything to eat so I know this is serious and not like the fun Michael I know. He steps to the front of the room and a light lights him up. "OK lets settle down and get started. Everyone knows who everyone is pretty much, except maybe Joy. Everyone this is Joy she is here to hear what's going on."

I shyly say Hi and I notice that Chamuel has an amazing loving smile, Gabriel waves, "Yes I met her at solstice, Hi Joy."

Michael clears his throat. "OK we are here to talk about the emotional situation of the humans. We said things would get bad and many are feeling it now, depression oppression and just a general feeling of it never getting better. Hopelessness is around every corner. "

A map appears on a screen from nowhere and I see the world enveloped in a web of black gooy string. Its seems alive and is weaving together, trying to swallow up the entire world.

"We have uncovered the plan of the darkness in its attempt to refocus the Children of Light from their tasks to be beacons of light for those in need. It seems all around the world the darkness has spread its hopelessness and feelings of dehumanization. We have had more Light Workers thinking of suicide then normal and it has kept us all busy. Gabriel has been particularly busy trying to deliver messages of hope but being turned back in many cases by darkness that has made inroads to our Light workers. There is opposition in many corners of the lives of our workers till a point they just feel like giving up and walking away, hiding till it leaves.

But that’s the point IT ISNT GOING TO JUST LEAVE.

Cham has been working to relieve the world of this onslaught of depression and its all been making some what of a difference but we have to give our light workers MORE to fight back with.

So we have composed a short affirmation/song that can be recited again and again

Gabriel empowered it so it will work, just say it again and again when you get to that point of wanting to run. It will fill our Light Workers and break this blackened hold the darkness is trying to place on our world."

Then I saw the gooy strings breaking over England area. It seemed to just snap and be gone. I ask Michael what was happening there and he told me the contact for them had started their affirmations already and this was the result, the stings breaking and dissolving away. I watched it spread like wildfire and knew we could touch the world and make the changes we needed if we just fought back like this.

Chamuel spoke, "Michael don’t forget I have my Angels of Destruction ready to fight as well. You let us know when and we will pounce on this latest attack with out hesitation. We must release the world and restore the Children of Lights confidence and faith that all will be well."

Michael replied, "That’s the next step Cham as soon as the Children help release the blackness we will step in to do battle. Then Gabriel and his Angels will rush in with the healing energies and deliver the messages the Creators have been trying to get the Children to hear. Now it may take some time because the Children must help make everything ready but we will do it."

With that the screen closed and disappeared but not before I saw places glowing in illuminated light once more.

"So I guess that’s it everyone, that’s the plan. Now I know we can do this together and that’s why the meeting was made together. You get your sections ready and we will form a united front, within the Light we are unbeatable!" said Michael and everyone clapped and hooted.

The meeting kinda broke up then as hands reached for goodies on the table and everyone was talking to everyone. Michael sat beside me.

"I hate speaking like that always makes me uncomfortable, much better with a sword." He grabbed for a burger.

"Michael I have been really down and depressed as of late, out of sorts and thinking of killing myself but to down to even care to try. I hope this works, many are feeling like this as well."

"We know Cub and we have been working over time to help but we can’t do a lot when people are not open to our help. They are once more so down they are forgetting who their true nature is and that is a Child of the Light, they just need to claim it once more and things will lift.

We cant stop the antics of the darkness, the things they have been set loose on the world to do but we can stop how much it affects those Children dedicated to the Positive Lighted Path. They are sending those to oppress you physically, spiritually and financially, they want to confuse your faith and take your light away. DO NOT let them.

Remember who you are and why you are there, do not run away and hide even if you would like to, now is the time to fight! To get in their face, to keep trying, every inch helps and every little bit of Light adds to the overall sum. Keep doing all you can and call to us when you have need, don’t say oh they don’t hear me or don’t care. WE DO! We are there and we are doing all we can BUT you must help to. You MUST fight too don’t expect us to carry the whole load you have to fight back and spread as much light as you can even when things feel at their lowest keep fighting we are there beside you. Does that make any sense at all to you?"

"Yes," I reply "That makes a whole lotta sense. I will remember Michael and I will share the Affirmation with as many as I can to help empower us when we have need. Let’s see I wrote it down here:

"Great then we have done our work here today, now let’s enjoy everyone’s company for awhile and I will take you back later. Next thing I knew an angel handed me a plate of food and a guitar appeared from no where. Raphael (where he came from I don’t know) was singing and so was Chamuel. There was lots of playing and talking and I even won a round of rummy.

When the Angels began to thin out Michael came to me and took my hand, we have to go Cub but I wanted you to meet Chamuel up close.

He lead me to Chamuel's side and Raphaels. "He and Raphael will be doing all they can to help with the depression and thoughts of suicide. They will try and lift everyone up and heal what has been wounded, it won’t be easy or simple but they have consented to do all they can."

I thanked Chamuel and Raphael and told them how much we appreciated their intercession for us and their energy work. They smiled and nodded and said we were welcome. They were fighters for the Children of the Light and would do all they could, all we would allow them to do in our lives.

"That’s the key I said, isn’t it. You can only do what we allow you to."

"Yes" said Michael "That’s the key to it all, you must allow us to work with and for you, as I said together we are unbeatable and the darkness must run."

Within seconds I found myself in my chair once more, Michael tucking me in and me tired and sleepy.

" I know you haven’t been physically well Cub so write this when you feel up to it, in the mean time we will make ready and tell others to make ready to." A quick kiss on the forehead and this journey was done.

Moving on with life

Well life has its ups and down and mine has been down lately but it is time to take ahold and refocus my friend Dark Scriptor http://dark_scriptor.bravejournal.com/ was right I believe the latest attack has been the darkness trying to refocus my attention. I have been feeling very useless and that is on me and no one else. I have allowed others passing comments and feelings to injure me and I will not do so any more.

Nope its back to working for the light and if something stings me I will need to look at it closer and ask myself why. Then I will change the energy level and bring it to a higher frequency so it fit with the light better and not allow it to drag me down to the darkness.

I have been accused of this being a one sided place, well I am afraid its true. I cant deny it, it is my thoughts and feelings and that is pretty much one sided. I am not here to act as a journalist and give a fair and impartial view I am here to speak my truth the way I see and feel it. This is my safe place where I can say what I wish (that’s why I paid for another year.) Sometimes it may sound unfair and I agree it maybe but that’s my feelings at the time. My feelings are not written in stone and once I get them out and see them I may very well change them when I se how unfair they are or I may just feel better "speaking" them. Please do not take them personally, they are thoughts that flow through my mind and I can not really apologize for my thoughts. Just each of you know if I am angry at you I will let you know I will e-mail you to work it out. If however I am hurt I will work it out here before I leap off and make yet another fool of myself. This is not to cause drama as some may say it is just the only way that works for me in my thinking healing process, I have always been one to write it down and once out I can easily move on with no hard feelings.

So anyway I will be moving on and doing what I can to help the light, I may stumble in your eyes and falter. I may not be the perfect listener to my spirit guides or the ALBs I am human and believe me I make so major mistakes daily. Yet where ever I am, whatever event I am in, no matter in whose eyes I may be doing it wrong or not perfect I am exactly where I need to be. In all my imperfection’s I am perfectly me and I am trying to strive to be a better person even if I keep coming up short. Just because I happen to speak with Angels doesn’t mean I don’t make mistakes or am better than anyone else on their spiritual journey, it just means I get messages to share and can mess up even more (which I often do) then others lol.

What means a lot to me in my blog family is how kind so many of you have been to me. How you have lifted me up and cared for me in my darkest of hours and how your passing words are often perfect for me at the moment you share them and you don’t even know. In my life (without going into depth) I have seldom, almost never had people stand up for me or care enough to lift me up, so such actions mean the world to me. So to the many who over my blogging years have been there I send you the most loving and grateful hugs you could ever have as well as a warm heartfelt thank you.

Blessings all and I will be here yet another year

LWM

I am in a chat and feel as if my skills are being devalued. The pattern of speech is familiar and the words used ring a bell I wonder if it is the one who hates me. I am upset and confused. I am silent.

They ask: are you OK, tell us we will support you we are your friends

I believe them, this is a safe place to speak after all my beliefs were just torn apart by another here so you can say what you feel right.

I say I think that person was I name them

No it was not someone replies

OK I say, but down deep I wonder

An ease dropper bursts in "It was not me how dare you say these things when I am not here."

OK I was wrong

Why say them when I was not here

No one asked me before I answer

You have wronged me and blah blah blah

I apologize (This is not a safe place to speak your truth I soon learn)

Still he rants and on and on

9 times I say I am sorry

3 times I ask what I can do to make it right

His tirade goes on and on,

Once I ask are you even reading what I am writing

on and on it goes.

I shout I WAS WRONG

Still he goes on and on (Gezz all I said was I thought it was him speaking)

On he goes assaulting me

Again I try to apologize still he ignores it

Run the voices say run and hide, let this darkness win this night, I am crying (conflict always makes me cry) I am bending over backwards. What have I done so bad but speak what I thought and then only when asked. What happened to this being a good place to discuss things?

I am shaking, still he goes on. I am afraid but I am not sure of what. His darkness weaves a cloak about me and I am suffocating in its nasty words and innuendoes. He is screaming something about how come he is the bad guy defending himself. I wonder why he is the bad guy as well…..

There is no defense here. I have admitted that I may have made a bad assumption, I was wrong and I am sorry yet it is not enough

I ask what would be enough.

He says he doesn’t know I feel broken and embarrassed I feel alone and useless, I am humiliated and degraded and for what I say. For voicing when asked what I was thinking

A light hand touches me and the flutter of wings about me. I remember I do not have to justify anything. I have done my part and this continued assault is just the darkness trying to beat me down and make me stop. I am renewed by the energy about me

ENOUGH! I Shout! I have had enough I tell him, I have done all I can if he accepts or denies it it is up to him. I am done with this and nothing will ever satisfy him I am done with this all.

He still doesn’t stop but I do not return an answer, he doesn’t know what to do and leaves. I am relieved and apologize to those who had to suffer this confrontation as well.

He rushes back in with something Blah blah blah about not exchanging e mails about him either. I have assured him earlier I would never mention him again (by name) and so I say nothing. Yet I wonder how he will censor my e-mails… this seems ridiculous to me.

In fact growing in self confidence as the Angels stand beside me. I am sure this whole thing was BS and an attempt to make me run (see he hated me from another infraction he sees I did months ago) Nope I will not run, this made me stronger.

But what it also did was teach me that no one will stand for you but you. I will not speak my truths there it is NOT SAFE Such an outrage on my board of a person who was asked what they thought would have been a time out (a short ban) it did not happen I was forced to fight and I did not want to, I wasn’t up to it yet "it is good they are talking" was said. IT WAS NOT GOOD it was painful and hurtful and I had no way out but to leave. I could not leave for it would have been rude so I was forced to face this onslaught of darkness, I will not be so stupid again I have learned.

I do not know if I will ever return to that place. I do not know if I will ever speak there again. I will let the Angels lead me what I do know is that a large wall has been built between me and everyone there at the time I am not sure at this point if I will ever tear it down, it is not a safe place to share and I will remember that for all eternity.

LWM

The Universe is at work again and once more I am in awe. For those who have been following me you know of our plight of losing the house we lived in and being evicted, homeless and now fighting to find our way back on our feet. We were upset we had lost the house as you can imagine and just couldn’t understand the universe. Still the land is owned by a corporation we head so we went out to check the land which is still the corporations property. Now if you also remember 3 or 4 weeks ago Fargo was flooded and fighting to keep the city from going under. This piece of land is in a small town close to Fargo and on a nice day we decided to take a look at any damage.

On our way out we spoke of the pain we went through and not understanding why the universe had thought it best for us to lose our home, as we got closer we noticed lots of damage to the fields and the road, yet we continued. Closer we traveled to our home and saw fields that it would be impossible to plant anything in for awhile as the water and mud was to soggy. We noticed 4 feet of water sill standing in the ditch on one side of the road and still we traveled on. Next we crossed over a bridge that covers a river, the river was still way out of its banks and almost over the road, with maybe a foot or foot and a half to go. A housing complex next to it was still lapping at the peoples doors and had about 6 feet to go to be on the porches. Sandbags still in place to keep the water away.

Finally we turned down our road to our lost home, a few feet into it stood a sign on an over pass that read Road closed ahead. Wanting to see what was happening we drove to the top of the over pass and were not in the least ready for what we saw. 3 weeks after this flood we saw what I would call beach front property in the fields that surrounded the homes where we lived. The road had washed out and the fields were not just flooded but covered with water, you couldn’t see the fields at all. It looked like a giant lake. A house (not ours but close to ours) was sitting in the middle of pond of water and there was no doubt that water had filled this home just a few weeks ago if not still now. NO ONE could get into their homes here, unless it was by boat.

We stood there just caught in the sight, looking trying to wrap our minds around what we saw and the destruction of it all. We were overwhelmed and shocked to the core, we turned the car around and began the drive back.

On the ride home we talked about how lucky we were to have been gone when we were or we would have lost all our belongings in the flood. Every thing we owned would right now be sitting in a water as the water poured through the cracks, windows and doors of the house. How wise the universe had been to move us when it did because the place we ended up at couldn’t have taken us in during the flood because someone else had been staying there. That it would have been near impossible to get me in my wheel chair out of there in a boat as well as all of the dogs. The cars would have been lost and many many other things as well. As bad as the eviction had been we had managed to survive it and keep most of our possessions. The universe was wise even when we whined and cried, what was going on was in our highest and best interest even when we didn’t understand it all. We were being Blessed at the time and couldn’t recognize it until the event had happened. We Thanked the Goddess and God at that moment for taking care of us, even when we were like whining children wanting our way, lesson learned!

As we drove I kept hearing the fae talking about the house, they were saying the basement was full of water, not hard to believe and since the electricity was off the sump pumps hadn’t turned on. Ohhhh what a mess that was. They giggled and said "Hadn’t you always wanted an in ground pool Lady Wolfen?" I smiled and said "Yes, but not like this". Lady Wyntier Song made the comment that all the mice in the fields were seeking higher ground and the Fae agreed all the critters and bugs had looked for a place to be safe, plenty had found it in our old home, deserted and dark. We both shivered at this thought and at the thought of the mice and such coming in, in droves to escape the rising waters. Now I am not afraid of mice but I would rather they not run through my home and crawl on my stuff. No they need to stay outside where they live, so the thought of them on my items was very disagreeable to me. No doubt we must thank the universe and learn to trust.

Once back in town I decided I was hungry and could use a sandwich as my sugar was dropping and I could feel it. We stopped at McDonalds and got a burger and Lady Wyntier Song got her favorite apple turnovers (She always gets 2 one for now and one for later). Munching on my burger and talking of our discovery we passed a very busy corner where traffic flows at a pretty even and fast pace. There stood a woman in her early 30s with a sign and a back pack. Now its bad enough on my heart strings when it says homeless, because in my opinion NO ONE in the USA should ever be homeless, hungry, or without proper clothes (I.E. Coast for winter or shoes or so on) or need medical attention but there she stood. This time the sign said Homeless-Broke anything will help! Now remembering our affliction I quickly made the corner burger still in hand , if I had money to buy a burger I had a few dollars for her. Lady Wyntiers Song was already reaching for the wallets…"Give me a ten" I said and she poped one into my hand as she took my burger. "Here," She said "she might be hungry" and placed the second apple pie in my hand. What a gesture, it brought tears to my eyes for her to give up her food for another, I have such a giving friend and I am lucky.

We were closer to the homeless lady now, I rolled down the window but the traffic was going to fast I couldn’t pass it off this fast. What to do I thought, ah the hell with it they all can wait! I stopped the car not for an extended time but long enough to give her the money and then the pie. "Here Honey its warm, you might be hungry." She took it with a beaten down smile, "Thank you God Bless" "Been where you are, bless you" and with that we drove away.

I watched her put the food in her back pack and the money in her pocket and pick up her sign once more. I remembered when 5 was good but 10 dollars felt like you were king. I remembered the kindness of so many when Lady Wyntiers Song and I had become homeless and how money was given without a word. I wished such loving hearts for her and in silence I started to cry. I noticed Lady Wyntier Songs eyes had tears as well. "Well let me turn on the AC so we can at least say the tears are from that" we both laughed and wiped our eyes with tissues. "Could have been us" I said. "Yes it could have" she replied. We passed the place where we stayed and both said "Blessings to him."

Then we moved on to everyday things like how much we needed to gather together to move to a cheaper apartment which we have been wanting to do. As well as our dreams and so on but there in the back of my mind is still how awesome the universe is and how amazing its timing even when we don’t know, even when we fight it and whine like children to get what we think we want. As long as we stay in the light and try to do what is in our highest and best interest it leads us, sometimes kicking and screaming to what we need most. We don’t see the bigger picture the Angels (ALBs) have explained that to me, we don’t know all the players we just se out small part of it. It is because of this we must have sublime submission and faith and trust. Today taught me a lot on this subject, each day I learn more some days more then others this day I think I finally got it. The lesson that I was to learn finally made it through this thick skull, so now as for the new apartment we were so hard trying to find I will just sit back and allow the universe to work as it should. Heck what it will give me will be better then anything I could have figured out anyway and it will work wonderfully. So if we are meant to get this one or the next one I will be patient and I will wait. For it is the Lady and Lord I serve and I may as well let then use me as they will and give me what they wish me to have and They only wish me to have good things, now I ask ya how do you beat that!

LWM

I have been wrestling with an issue I have. I did something the other day, not smart but none the less I did it. There are times my brain disability causes me to be confused and not make the best decisions; this was one of those days. Not something I would normally do on a good brain day.

Anyway in the course of a conversation I explained what I had done. My point was how the universe blesses you and takes care of you even at the lowest times and when you cant think straight yourself if you just trust in the Lady and Lord all turns out well. Instead I was yelled at and I felt humiliated by what I had done, I tried to explain I was sick and not thinking straight but to no avail. I tried to say that I am in no way perfect and this is one of the issues I often deal with, no let up. I tried to explain that this was not my point, that my point was the wisdom and beauty of the universe even at our lowest. Instead I felt my words were thought less of and I was relegated to the trash heap because I did not live up to this persons thoughts of what I should or shouldn’t be did or didn’t do.

It was painful and this person tried to make it seem they cared but I did not feel it. There was no compassion just condemnation. There was no caring, just calling names and trying to make me feel more ashamed then I already did. The approach however well intended just backed me against a wall and pummeled me all the more, making me feel even less then my already thread thin self esteem. I made a mistake I said can we move on now! They said NO, and continued to fling words of pain at me.

Not once was there a question of why? Not once did they want to know what they could do to help. Not once was there concern as to what had driven me to this point. Just a verbal salad of painful and shame filled words on how what I had done would have affected them, nothing on healing, love or compassion. I was shocked and agaste. This had not been my point at all, I had trusted them and I had wanted to share what I had discovered with them. They complained I hide behind things yet when I shared my real self it was not good enough….no this kinda friendship I do not need, this is not love or light, this is not helping and compassion this is judgmental and guilt with a bit of blame and censure at my personal behavior thrown in. This persons feelings could have easily been related by saying I wish that wouldn’t have happened and we love you (as another friend said) and it meant the world to me. That is compassion, yelling and pointing fingers and calling names is NOT the way to help another no matter how good your intentions are. I do not hate this person, I just am not sure of myself around them now...something I must work on for sure.

What I did learn from this encounter is that my true self is not good enough, as my confused mind had already suspected. That I cant let people close enough to really know me, that I must never share my true feelings because it may leave me open to a verbal attack in which I will be called names like selfish and stupid. That it doesn’t matter what I feel only how I may make others feel (seen in my selfish actions). These are the actions of this verbal encounter taught me, let us pray that my mind is working well enough to walk away from this convoluted lesson.

Let us pray that from this I take how NOT to treat another in pain who is trying to make a point, let us pray I respect a person enough that when they say can we move on we do so. Let me show the love, light compassion and real caring that they need and not the harsh violent approach that I was a target of, with the excuse that that is just how they deal with things. How we help another is not how WE deal with things but how the universe guides our words and what this broken bruised soul needs most. If we must bend over backwards from what works for us in the norm, then so be it for it is for them we heal not for our benefit.

Just my thoughts

Lady Wolfen Mists

© LWm written april 17 2009 happened late 1970s

I was young then barely 21 but I was tough and I knew all it took to make the world one grand party. Now I am not taking drugs or such, just wildness. Ya know drinking, boys and night after night dancing in the discos and laughing, No real responsibility simply life set to amuse me. I was headed the wrong way many said, I was to wild for my own good, I was the black sheep of the family but I didn’t care, I had friends, money, fashion, love and fun life was all about me!

Now it happened across the street from where I lived, with my parents as we were getting ready to move to North Dakota and I had given up my apartment to drive my mom there and stay. There were two of the kindest people I had ever met; they were Christians and Gideons (Ya know those people that give out bibles). They were not overwhelming nor were they so heavenly bound they were no earthly good, no they were kind and caring and always helpful. The wife’s name was Cleo and she had happened to have read a book about Angels on Earth. I walked in and she was talking to my mom about it. It sounded interesting to me but I was far to cool at that time to say so. She caught me listening and asked, " So do you believe in Angels?" Being the super cool spirit I was and not to be locked into this crazy religious thing her and my mom talked about often I answered with a smart mouth.

"I’ll tell you what I will believe in an Angel when I see one in front of me." With that I was away to a new night of party friends and wildness, not thinking another thing on it.

The next night I was kinda poor so I couldn’t go out and I stayed home watching the TV, the movers were due in the morning. I was alone, Dad was in North Dakota and mom was visiting her friends outside. The show was called "THE HOLOCAUST" and it was heart wrenching. I had never learned such things and it shook me to my quick. I was so sit back as I watched this show, so touched. Still I was young and unsure of what to do about any of it, so I tucked it away not to think on it again.

That night I went to bed and I slept our last night before the movers came, in my own bed. It was a warm night and so I had a big box fan at the foot of my canopy bed. My mother’s room was on the other side of mine. In this loft you had to walk through my room to get to her door, I had put up curtains for privacy.

Now what happened next you can count to the movie I watched or the pizza, that didn’t sit right or a thousand other things. I choose to count it to a smart mouthed girl the universe awoke rather suddenly and with a start.

I was asleep but I wasn’t and this is what happened. The stairway opened up to a loft but the railing was missing so the stairs were a gaping hole. I heard the dragging of feet up the stairs. I grabbed my knife and waited in the bed, maybe it would go away. It didn’t so I looked and saw the head and shoulders of a man as he came up the stairs. He reached the top and turned towards me behind the fan (which was not in my view at all right now but should have been).

He was tallish, and wore light brown corduroy pants, with a light brown belt and a shiny gold buckle. His shirt was white with thin dark blue pin stripes; the cuffs were flipped back. His shoes really bothered me; they were out of time. They wore the old hook and button shoes that one laced up, they were bulky and black and he couldn’t lift them well. His skin was mid eastern tan and his hair was curly brown. He had a very nice face, what I could see of it at the time. Yet something about him made me frightened and uncomfortable.

His hands hung down in front of him kind limp and his head was bent down so all I could see well really was the top of his head. I looked closer and felt a lot of fear I clutched my knife. He lifted his head and had a errie smile on his face; it chilled me to the bone. I wanted to get away.

He lifted his right arm towards me, pointing and motioning me to come closer to him; I dropped the knife and wiggled as far as I could to the top of the bed. I was in sheer full-blown terror then, clutching at anything I could. He opened his eyes and I screamed the soulless screams of billions of people caught in pain, terror, agony, and hopelessness and knowing they will never get away. I screamed and screamed and I screamed.

He kept looking at me, pulling me in. I howled in misery as I climbed as high as I could go away from him. "Oh my God, Oh Jesus Help Me!" Poof !!!! With those words he was gone!

I was awoken by my mother terrified by my terror on the side of my bed. I had climbed the canopy poles and was standing as high as I could. My mother who had to run in front of my line of vision and should have woken me up by that act was scared to death the fan had fallen and was slashing my foot to pieces.

I told her it all I had seen and she hugged me, and at 21 years old this big tough super cool kid went to sleep with her mom. Yet I did not sleep all night, thoughts keep running through my head. Was he coming back, would he take me? What could I do to stop hime? Where was my life going? What of Angels? All kinds of thing and I shook all night in fear and clutched my mothers arm.

The next morning I waited for the neighbor’s shades to open and at 7:00 and unheard of time for me, I was like a flash out the door. My mom had already called and they were waiting for me.

"Please, Please, " I begged Cleo "May I sleep upstairs?" "Of course you may," she said, no smiles or laughter. And so I found myself in one of their girl’s old rooms. Decorated in white and purple with pictures of Jesus about and a cross at the foot of my bed. I was so relieved, I was safe here. I slept like a baby

While I slept that day the movers came and when I awoke that afternoon I knew my life had been changed as well. Things put away and moved. I told everyone my experience at supper they listened and smiled. God touches us when we are ready were all they said. No I told ya So’s, no well that what you deserved for the wild life you were living. Nope none of that. I did tell them though and I wanted to shout it out, "Cleo I do believe in Angels cause I saw the devil himself all evil incarnate and I have to say If he is that bad God has got to have something twice as good!"

To this day I remember it like it was just yesterday. I know some day we will meet again. I know he will be waiting for me with that hand pulling me only this time I will not scream. I will stand full footed and I will laugh, a deep belly laugh, "You again?" I will say and I will call out to my angels who I walk, talk and dance with. I will call out to spirit guides who will stand beside me, I will call to my power animals who will line beside me in positive energy. I will send for my friends who are Light Warriors and spirit workers, I will send to My Bright Lady and Lord who will with nothing but a blink send him away with all negativity. Yes I am not afraid as before for I will dwell in the house of the Loving Creator and of positive light for all my eternity.

So movie, pizza, smart mouth, lifestyle, universe getting enough of me, you decide. Me I know it was real and I don’t care why, I am just glad I moved from there to here and have now become a child working in the positive light of Love and compassion.

Blessings,

Lady Wolfen Mists

April 14 2009 Latest ALBs Message 

(c) LWM

Well its been awhile but finally my chair felt the ever so familiar thunk thunk of a foot hitting it. Yep deep in sleep I am awoken by Michael giving me a kick or two to get my attention. I breathe deep and smell his welcome scent. I am so happy he has returned I didn’t realize how alone I had felt in his absence.

"Wake up Cub, we have work to do."

I open my eyes and stretch, "Michael I thought you had left me for good, I have missed you."

"No cub I haven’t left you I never would, just busy with duties. I have missed you as well."

I stand with Michael’s help and he hugs me. "Come now we must get going."

I do not question anymore where ever we are to go I will go. No point asking questions for I will know soon enough what it is that I am needed for. For now I just enjoy the journey to where we are going.

I am lifted through the astral levels, seeing once more the many other travelers there. Like always there are some on their own looking and learning, but I see Gabriel with a man he is leading, looks like Michael and me in a way. I wave and he calls my name and waves back. The man with him looks kinda scared; this must be his first trip. I remember what that felt like and I wave to them both. As we pass I smile and say "Don’t worry it gets better" He looks at me and weakly smiles; "I hope so, its kinda weird."

"Weird yes but its wonderful as well." And we pass on by.

Michael ruffles my hair, "Yep it is weird isn’t it, but I am glad you have learned to enjoy it as well."

I nod and try to fix my hair, "Its very scary the first couple of times, you think your going crazy. Then if you’re not crazy it just isn’t normal. But in the end I learned it was OK and that it’s a part of who I am, pretty cool really."

Michael grins and bumps me with his body and I am flipped over completely, flying upside down. "Oh so that’s how it is, is it?" I come back with a dive which he eludes with no problem, and I speed right past him, I pull up and try to dive bomb him again. He turns and, his great wings surround me, he has 6 ya know, when he wants to. I wiggle to get away but he makes me say "uncle" and I know I am sooo out of my league here, I give up. Once more we are flying/floating side by side.

I notice that there are less and less people in the area and more and more Angle Like Beings, the light is getting brighter and warmer. Not a hot kinda warm but the kinda warm you get when you have done something kind for another, it creeps all through you and you are energized by what you have done, that kinda warm.

Then suddenly before us is a giant set of Gates. They are shiny and glow, The glow is a purple blue white and it seems to flow over everyone. There is also a wonderful hum to it, which seems restful and serene. I ask Michael what they are and he says they are the gates of unconditional love. As long as there is a kernel of love in the world the gates will glow and hold back the darkness. It is just another weapon in the fight against the darkness, which would eat up all the love, and kindness the beings of the world have in their hearts.

"May I touch them," I ask.

"Sure you can open them that’s where we are headed" he replies and continues "These gates are the entrance to another level of the astral planes some would say another level of Heaven. It is closer to the dwelling place of the creator. You have earned your entrance to this place for a few minutes."

I touch the gates, and am completely inundated by the feeling of goodness and caring. I see all the good things in life; acts of people helping another. I mean I really see them, all of it, everything that is or was ever done in love and caring I feel and see, like living through it. It is amazing and I am overcome with love and I weep. Such beauty and such love, if only the world could feel this there would be no choice for darkness, everyone would want to be a part of this.

Michael takes my hand and dries my tears, "Really touches you don’t it? Well come along there is more to see."

We walk past the gates and down a street of what looks like crystal. Michael begins, "I have told you over and over that things will get bad and they have. You have shootings, killings, deviant perversions going on and life looks very bleak. People are calling out asking what's the point of it all and most are depressed and oppressed beyond measure. Almost more then we can keep up with and this cub is just the beginning. I wanted to show you hope, I wanted to show you the point of it all, what is meant for each and every person on your planet. What has been meant from you since the beginning of time and what was to be given to you when you are all ready. "

I am shocked for before me lies the most incredible city I have ever seen, with beings coming and going. Like the Gates this emanates love and caring but to the nth degree. Everyone who passes speaks to me and knows my name and somehow I know them. I am so happy here; there is everything I could ever want. Places for me to study and learn, animals for me to care for and be a part of, there is a house for me a perfect house. For those who know me they know what security I have in a house and now here it is. I will never again be homeless for I have a house like you never seen waiting one me. There are people to touch and hearts to unite with, it is an amazing place and I begin to glow as my angel vision kicks in. I realize this is a place of purity and no negativity.

Michael begins, "This plane is how Earth was meant to be before the fallen did what they did. This is how Earth was supposed to be a place for all to come and join in and to care for each other. All you’re needs met and all your wants considered."

I hear him and I realize I never want to leave; there is a choir I want to join and horse-riding lessons I want to take. There are classes on creation I wish to enroll in and one on animals. There is no need for translators here because I realize all beings are talking to each other and understanding each other.

I get to explore my place; my home and I visit with some souls who live here. I won’t tell you about that for it is private and I wish to keep it to myself. Let me just say this is more amazing then I can share, more then I have words to describe.

Soon it is time to leave for Michael explains I can’t take the vibrations here for very long, I am not fully ready for this level for long periods so we go.

Once more down the streets of crystal to the gates, This time Michael opens and closes the gates and I pass through. "Can I come here anytime Michael," I ask.

"No cub you cant, you must be escorted. Your vibrational level is still too connected to the earth plane to come here on your own, if you were to get here you would do your etheric self harm by not being ready and entering for to long on the levels. There was much more I would have liked to show you, things you could not imagine on your own but I cant take you in that far yet without doing irreparable harm."

"Will I be able to see it all one day Michael? Will I be able to stay there?"

"Yes if you learn to give up anger and revenge, if you keep on open heart and fight for the light and those less fortunate then you. What you saw in the gate is how you must become to reach this level permanently."

"Well when I cross I can enter no problem right?"

"Not if you didn’t attain the frequency level when you were alive cub, just because you cross the shores doesn’t give you a free pass to any level of creation, it simply removes you from the earth plane. You must have worked to attain certain levels to be able to access them. People ask what is the point of life, for you now it is to learn to love so that you may enter that level of being when you cross. That place that was meant for you upon creation, it is a place without negativity and full of loving purity. We do not keep it from you because of punishment; we would love it if each one of you could enter. No we guard it because if you are not ready you will harm yourself beyond what we could heal. It is meant for those who have worked and attained those higher frequencies of Love and sharing, that is all you need that is the secret key…..LOVE."

"So if I do what I saw when I touched the gates then I can change my frequency and return for good?" I asked thinking hard, it didn’t seem that bad I would just be kinder and try to help more. I would share what I had and love as best I could that didn’t seem too hard.

"Yes Cub that’s all you need do and it doesn’t have to be perfect it just needs to be the best you can do, each day you will see you can do a little better a little more and soon your whole inner being will chance. This change will effect your etheric body and soon you will be at a new and purer frequency and once that allows you entrance to that Higher heaven, that higher level of being, closer to the Creator."

"That’s make sense," I said. "I can do that," I said smiling and affirming to myself more then Michael that I would do that. After touching that world I would do all I could to insure my return. I noticed we were flying back home, I didn’t realize so much time had passed in the upper plane.

"But Cub I must warn you the dark times are arising and you will find yourself fighting what you may think is a losing battle, it is not that is the darkness deceiving you. The world around you will get worse and worse, crazy action will become mundane, killings will happen everyday and people will fight and kill for food and the basic necessities. It will be dark beyond what I can explain to you. Yet it will also be a time of possibilities and miracles will return. You will see those who are loving of heart giving beyond measure and the light will blaze like a beacon in the night for those who will look."

He continued, "That is your hope, that blazing light and you are one of the holders of that beacon as are all Light Workers. Many will grow weary and tired and begin to question and when they do remind them of where we have been today and what it is the light fights for, that place that was meant for all of you before the fallen ones took it from you. Remind them we are here and are but a few words away, they just need to call us and we will rush to their sides and hold them up as we lift them through the hard times. That is what you are to do Cub, Light the way and help those in need to remember and to love."

With that I was back in my room and seated in my chair. Michael was tucking in my blanket about me and with a gentle kiss to my forehead he said he had to go.

"I hope you come back soon Michael, maybe we could race again."

"I would love that cub but there is much work to be done, you aren’t seeing a lot of it right now for it is happening on other places but we are at war and it is getting rough. But if I get a break I will come back and we will ride with the winds once more. Now remember all you saw and all that was said, it may not seem as important as some of the other reveals we have given you but it is and its very important for someone who will read it."

I nodded once more, "OK I will get it up right away."

"For now," said Michael " You need to sleep" And so I did.

Who ever this was meant for I hope it helps you and blessings to you all

LWM

My friends, The world is changing the weather is erratic and things are uncertain. We are tired and scared; the economy is beating us down, light seems to have fled and left us alone in the darkness. We are alone and depressed and overwhelmed.

Do not for a moment give up, Remember you are loved!  Remember you are loved! Remember the Lady and Lord (or whatever you call the Creator) has a bigger plan and you are very much a part of it. The darkness doesn’t want you to be a part of the Light so its doing all it can to keep you down including making you feel alone, unwanted and not needed.

Its not true, break those bonds look up and ask your angels for help, feel them rush to your side and lift you up from the dark pit. Let me shine the light of love and truth for you until you can once more take it on yourself.

After a talk that I attended there were some great questions that I felt went unanswered, so I will attempt to answer them here. The questions were about portals and vortexes and such. Please note that these are just my experiences and information gleaned over my years of experience in these areas. They are not the only answers for sure but they are the ones that I work with in my spiritual journey, I hope they help you.

Lots going on in my life as usual I got my electric wheel chair yesterday and its amazing! I am sooo happy I regain some independence!

Heres the other thing I have been working on my newest adventure I am attempting. Its a site called Mogulus which is a live chat vid place. (Thanks for guiding me there Holly) I havent gotten the web cam out yet, dont even know if it works and dont know if I will ever have enough nerve to do it but it does have a great chat room. Thought ya all might enjoy a visit, now remember this is all new to me so I am learning as I go, its not perfect yet

http://www.mogulus.com/ladywolfenmists

Love ya bunches

LWM

OK not much new to report from the ALBs. They have been very silent for sometime, last night Michael runs (yes runs) in to where I sit in my chair, yells "Hey Cub!" and sticks his thumb up.    "Much better. Gotta go!" That was it, so looks like March is gonna be better for most of us so just hang in there, this Feb has been hard but it will get better!

Love ya all,

LWM

My friends I have had a rather tragic situation occur that laid me low and caused me to feel worthless and like I was trash. Now instead of going into details I would like to remind us all of a few things.

If someone new comes into your life and asks questions that makes you feel uncomfortable you need to step back and ask yourself why this is so. You shouldn’t strike out at the person who has no knowledge that they are doing this to you and hurt them. Remember your reactions say a lot about your character and you have no right to greatly hurt others, making them feel worthless, uncared for and like trash.