Hello all my dear friends I guess I should give you an update on my life and why I have been out of touch. On wed last we were evicted from my wonderful house. It was totally unexpected and before you say that’s illegal your right, but they still did it and so I was faced with the fact I had to find a place to live. I was homeless.

The sheriff came banging and kicking (yes kicking no exaggeration) on the door. I was sitting in my nightgown in my chair sleeping when all of a sudden the door behind me was literally being pulled off the hinges. I didn’t know who or what was going on. The man was shouting he was the sheriff and I was being evicted. He was rude, threatening and not in the least human or civil, demanding I get up and let him in. I told him I was disabled and couldn’t get up to open the door (in tears, near hysteria and total shock of course) He started kicking the door, and said he was going to kick it down if I didn’t open it. I was begging him not to kick my door in and to give me just an hour to call and find out what was going home. My roommate would be here in a ½ hour to figure this all out.

He still was kicking and yelling and threatening to dump me out on the street and then call social services. I couldn’t move I couldn’t think I couldn’t do anything. My eye started to go blind and my brain problems kicked in, I was shaking and my arm began to hurt, my face going numb, I had no idea what was being said or anything like that. Anyway to make a long nasty unprofessional and painful story short ( I do not want to relive the pain physically, emotionally, or spiritually) I am evicted and no longer live there.

We did find a special angel in the sheriffs dept who helped us and allowed us to get some of our stuff, what a lovely young lady. She enforced the order yet did so with caring compassion and humanity. Not like the cold, nasty, power hungry, dark centered sheriff who seemed to take such pleasure from my pain and confusion. and in his role in punishing me for preconceived wrongs.

So social services got us a motel for a few nights and then this wonderful pagan man I had met not more then 2 weeks before that; as well as his roommates I had known before allowed us to stay at his place. We have been racing around to try and find a place we could afford that allows service animals. Then a place to store the things that wont fit. I had to put down 2 of my big dogs, Lord and Goddess. Lord was 15 or so and long ready to go, just couldn’t bring myself to do it. Goddess was 14 or so and was getting on as well. She wouldn’t have lasted very well without Lord, missing him so much. I couldn’t give her away because she is a bit temperamental and would have bitten a stranger. I spoke with them and they were ready to go to the Summerland together, So as much as it hurt (and believe me it was like my children being taken from me) I did it. I also have to get rid of the 3 puppies. Jack (my special baby) is being taken by my good friend and so I will see him again. Devon is going with another good friend and so I wont totally lose track of him either. Now all I have is baby Minerva, I hope to find her a perfect forever home. She is so tiny it must be just right, no kids because she could be easily hurt and so on. Anyway there has been my life wrapped up in that, worried sick about my loveys.

We did manage to find a place to live, the lady looks so much like my favorite aunt who died I was shocked to see her there as all the color drained from my face, she even acts like her. The lady is so nice and understanding, we will be signing the lease today but the deposit is paid as is the first months rent. Now its just getting movers for the 1^st and we are done there.

Just a side note all this was up in the air until June 21^st when one phone call after another began to give us good news. Then to top it all off, Lady Wyntiers Song said, "what do the ALBs say?" I answered Michael is here with us, guiding us we must have faith. So LWS says well I wish he would give us a sign and hurry up about it. (We had been to at least 10 places that day we were exhausted and sick) This place we were on the way to we had made an appointment to see 1^st thing that day but it was way on the other side of the town so we called and said we werent gonna make the appointment. We looked at the other end of town, closer to LWS work. Nothing, so as an act of desperation we called the number to see if we could still drop by and see it. That’s when LWS said she wished Michael would give us a sign.

Next we met the manger who was the lady who is the spitting image of my aunt. This place was perfect. New, security, huge, elevator wheel chair access garage, heat paid WONDERFUL! What a sign it was from Michael and one we would have gotten right away if we would have seen it right away and not spent time trying to do things our way.

I am on awe of everything going on about this one, The bright Lady is so taking care of us. Friends from so long ago are helping us, people are repaying kindness done for them so many years ago I had long ago forgotten it. The love and compassion from so many brings me to tears on an almost hourly basis, I feel so loved and protected so cared for, I am truly Blessed. Shocked that so many do care about me and are reaching out to help both financially and in heart support. So many saying we will help you in anyway we can……And in this awful dark situation that I feared so much I have found more love and caring then I ever thought existed. I have seen that maybe I have helped a few people and that I do have something to offer people (even with my disability) that they value. The Goddess and God are amazing in the way they teach us lessons.

So as much as the darkness tried to destroy me (forcing upon me my biggest fear homeless in a wheelchair) and as much as it has taken (my home, a few of my dreams and mostly my babies which I love with all my heart and being.) I AM STILL STANDING and I am stronger for this lesson. I see what love can do, not just in my giving it but in allowing myself to receive it (a big step for me). I will NEVER forget how this felt, the fear, the hopelessness, the pain, the shame, the sick without eating, the diabetes sky high, the physical/emotional pain that is off the scales, My left leg is dragging a lot, I stumble and fall often as my legs just wont hold me up. I drop things, I am depressed and cry a lot, the thoughts of suicide are almost all the time now and hard to fight back, I want to really hurt myself. I am fighting a stress migraine off, my back hurts so very much, I cant sleep for the pain when I do there are nightmares, the stress to my brain as I try to make it work and it just wont, the uncertainly of it all. NEVER will I forget this and when I see someone in need as I was, I WILL reach out a hand, not judging. A place to rest and renew, to feel enveloped in love and lend as hand as best I can to help them rebuild their life and remember THEY ARE LOVED !

Thanks for listening to my ramblings and for all that you have sent (or will send). I am still sad, exhausted and feeling like I have taken the beating of a lifetime. But I am also humbled, standing stronger in the light then ever,

Blessings,

LWM

Now Shine my friends because it is so very true, YOU ARE LOVED

Do not let the darkness deceive you and pull you down, rise up, reach out as if on wings of Angels. Touch others and allow yourself to be touched. Know how truly special you are, Know that there is no one else who could be doing what you were sent here to do. That the Lady and Lord of Light, in their grand plan, had a reason to sit you here on this world, at this time and that even if you cant remember why, even if life has hurt you again and again, even if your choices have not always been the best. Even if it seems like everything you touch turns to shit and your never gonna get ahead, even if all that and more. REMEMBER YOU ARE LOVED, just as you are. The perfect you as you were meant to be at this time in your spiritual journey and no thing, not one thing could you could ever think, do or say, could ever ever take that love from you. You’re a marvelous amazing powerful creation, NOW SHINE!

Blessings,

May 28, 2008 © LWM

What a ride it has been these past days my friends, so much going on so much to take in. So much anger about me, even tons of negativity from people blogging. Goddess knows why, maybe one day it will all make sense to me.

I guess the only way to say what I am trying to lead up to is to spit it out. I guess I have ignored it long enough, I felt if I didn’t acknowledge it it wouldn’t be so, by my friends that just doesn’t work. So here it is, in my face and I must deal with it. I have MS. Now what to do about it? I will not take the meds, as the side effects are awful so I guess I will just use positive imagery and control the pain. Yes before you ask I am taking calcium and lots of Vitamins. The pain is awful today, but somedays its like it doesn’t even exist.

I will go to the Goddess and ask for Her Loving hands upon me. I will wash in the Raphael waters I have created and I will go on with life. Maybe a bit slower (if that’s possible hee hee) but still doing my best to serve and to work with the Light. Maybe Michael will kick my chair a little softer and hug me a bit gentler. Maybe I cant let the dogs use me as a trampoline so much but I will still keep trying and I know I WILL Win because I have unwavering faith and nothing can keep me down for long, not even a cursed disease like MS.

So if you hear from me and I seem a little out of it or if you don’t hear from me for awhile its just that I may be needing a bit of time to myself to beat this thing and I will return better than ever.

Blessings all,

LWM

An exercise in believing in YOU

OK so lets deal with this self confidence thing, I can really understand this as I too spent many years feeling unworthy and that others needs were more than mine. That is until one day a 3rd degree High Priestess told me something that changed my life.

She said remember that INSIDE YOU rests the Goddess in her many forms, loving, vindictive, caring, tired, sage like and foolish and so many more. You are her child and a reflection of all that is. When you feel unsure or that your not worth anything square your shoulders, take a deep breath and say "I am Goddess and I not only deserve all that is positive in existence, I can create it for myself. If for no other reason than I am Goddess!"

So when you feeling low or unsure, when its hard to decide look in a mirror and say out loud

"I AM GODDESS"

and know in your heart that its true!

Blessing my Gods and Goddess's do this exercise when in need and feel Her or His (as the case maybe) Loving presence flow through you. Men may want to say "I AM GOD!" as they may feel more comfortable acknowledging that part of themselves. In either case See the Divine spark within you swell and know that what you say is true. We are all Gods and Goddess's as we are all a part of the SACRED WHOLE, we just need to remember a bit more often.

Forever In The Loving Service Of Others,

LWM

Well I just renewed my blog for another year an expense I could have done without but I do so love it and I want to support Bravenet. I guess 55.00 isnt that much for as much enjoyment I get out of blogging.

The perfect "Fixed Up "Me

Do you have any idea how many times a week I hear one of you out there tell me how they need to fix themselves up before they can really get spiritual. That they are not all right now to come into their own spiritual walk. As if there is some defect in them, something not perfect. . Ya know that whole "how can I fix me and be best person I can be" What a load of pure CRAP! This notion that we must fix ourselves up to a level of okness to be accepted is such propaganda that makes the self help authors millionaires and us neurotic , anxiety ridden, shamed filled entities, floating in a sea of what if and if I could just get it right

Let me tell you Dear Ones, that you. Yep YOU just as you are right now are perfect! You must realize that you are the best person you can be right now! Yep thats right at this very moment in time with all the life experiences you have had and all the knowledge you have gleaned you are doing the very best that YOU can do. Thats not to say as you grow and learn you wont do better but it is to say that there is nothing wrong with you as you are!

The universe works at its own time (I know its sometimes to slow for me to) but it allows us to develop as we NEED to not as we WANT to. In the end we see that all the time spent was so worth it and we wouldn't change a single thing as it was all in our best interest and placed it exactly where we needed to be. That in finding your balance, you accept both the dark and light side of yourself and choose to work openly with the light, however you must have the dark to balance it all.

Many people come to "enlightenment" thinking they must remove all the dark faults, NOTHING could be further from the truth. You must know who you are totally and completely, appreciate who you are ( positive and negative) and then accept both sides. Once this is done then you dedicate your works to the light. For it is then you have the knowing that you balance the darkside of yourself.

Unconditional love is not the removal of everything but what you perceive to be positive. It is embracing all of who you are ugly warts, anger, faults and saying its OK, its what makes up the total me and I am a sacred and holy person just as I am. There is nothing to fix only things to get to know and accept and my conscious decision to work within the light and promote the positive.

Does this make sense to you? I do so hope so. I hope that you take it inside yourself and keep it in your heart. I hope you print it off and carry it with you, read it until it is engraved in your mind. KNOW that it is true and stop trying to fix the prefect creation you are. Instead try to learn and understand it and most of all accept it and LOVE it as It is you dear One and you are a child of the Lord and the Lady. Worthy in all things as a wondrous and unique one of a kind creation.

Bright Blessings,

Forever In The Loving service Of Others,

Lady Wolfen Mists

So we all seem to have food on our minds right now, you cant turn the TV or Radio on without hearing of possible shortages, limited allowances of what you can buy, riots and more. I asked the ALBS about this what can we do to help in the growth of more food from gardens we grow.

In a 10 foot by 10 foot garden use the following lay out, (see above fig 1.) Keep the middle Crystal pointing up and the other Crystals pointed towards the center Crystal. Crystal size doesn’t matter, just so the center crystal is the largest.

The Aventurine can be tumbled or raw, it doesn’t matter. The size of the Aventurine does matter:

For Small = chips to dime size They need placed every 2 feet apart between Crystals

For Med to large Size = over dime to larger They need placed every 4 feet apart between crystals

If your plot is larger then 10 by 10 you will need to add a crystal for every additional 10 feet. For example if its over 10 feet, say 11 feet you will need an extra crystal cause its over the 10 feet.

If you are planting on a balcony or such, place the Crystals/Aventurine on the outer edges of the area, so you make a grid. If you are planting in pots 1 small crystal plus 1 small Aventurine in each pot.

So hopefully that should help. I can vouch for using crystals in plants. We had an apple tree that we planted for a dear friend that crossed, we placed a crystal under it in the root ball to help it along. One year this tree was so abundant it had over 200 apples and it was only about 6 feet tall at the time. Each year it had produced many many apples. It is also the tree that gave us the great pictures of the Fae.

http://www.silverhoofs.com/faegarde.htm

We have moved it to the new house (crystal and all) and we will see how it does this year as we transplanted it right before winter last year.

Blessings,

LWM

Hi everyone,

I have some kinda fun pictures I got the other day and I thought I would share them with you. See it has been kinda cold in ND with snow and all so we decided to have a fire in the fireplace the other day. It was nice and warm and we let it burn for awhile. When we were done we let it burn out and left the living room. The next day I thought it would be nice to have another fire. My roommate went to make the fire and I noticed the tiles. There before my eyes were tiny little foot prints in the ashes, no one had been there since we left yesterday so it couldn’t have been from us.. I couldn’t believe it, there they were, Faery feet!

Maybe they were roasting marshmallows (like I did) or maybe they were cold as well but I thought you might get a kick out of looking at the pictures I took. Now the pictures aren’t as clear as the actual footprint was because the tiles glared so much and it was to dark without the flash but I think you will be able to see them fairly well.

The first picture is a picture of the fireplace and where the footprints were in regard to the fireplace

The second and third pictures are cut outs and close ups of the footprints. Nothing else was done to the pictures.

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Ok so let me know what you think. I think its pretty interesting

Blessings,

LWM 

Hey everyone, How goes your life? I haven’t been blogging like I should because I have been busy. But I have a few minutes right now so I thought I would drop you a line and say Hello.